I went to a specialist this week for what I thought was a preeclampsia consultation. I was a little surprised that they wanted to do an ultrasound since I had just had one the week before. This was a Level 2 machine so the ultrasound pictures were very clear.
I was all very excited after this sonogram, texting the pictures to everyone I knew. Then quickly things changed. They sat me down with a genetic counselor to tell me the ultrasound showed a soft marker for Trisonomy 21. It’s called an Echogenic Bowel. Instantly I was crying. My husband stayed home with the kids because we thought this was going to be a very basic appointment so I was all alone.
From that point on things moved quickly. They had me filling out a family tree adding the ethnicity of every person. They were taking blood. All the time I’m crying. Then I met with the Doctor. I was there for 4 hours. Worst experience ever.
So basically right now we are waiting. They will call us in 14 business days to let us know the blood test results and I’ll get another sonogram in 4 weeks to see if it gets better.
It’s a very weird feeling. I don’t want to be sad because I don’t want this child to think that I was not happy to have them. I am very happy. I feel a little overwhelmed to whether I am equipped to be the kind of mom it takes to raise a child with a disability. But I do know that my kids would be great at it. Timmy and Grace already love this baby so much that I’m convinced if this is the path God is leading us down than they would be the best siblings.
I’m really trying not to obsess but I can’t help but look up information. The next 14 days are going to be long.