39 weeks

In 8 hours or so we will be a family of FIVE! Its very exciting. Timmy & Grace can’t wait. Tim is like a kid on Christmas Eve.

Me. Scared.

I cant help but think of the terrible what ifs that leave my kids without a mom. Honestly i want to go in their room right now and wake them up and put them in my bed. 

Timmy led us in prayer tonight saying how much he loved the baby and cant wait to feed the baby and change diapers. Grace was too busy running around with Max to say more than 2 words of her prayer. She sure does love that boy.

I want this surgery to be over and be holding all my babies. 

I just finished wrapping Gracie’s birthday presents. Tomorrow is going to be an extra special day and I better attempt some sleep.

I love these kids more than all the everything of all time ❤️

38 weeks!

Well we are still pregnant. 6 more days!

Tonight I asked Tim if he was ready for how tired we are about to be ANDDD he says how can i even be more tired than i am right now. This, my friends, is NOT a good sign. Our #1 fight post baby is who is more tired. This man thinks he is already tired. 

Luckily we both already know how hard a new baby is on a marriage. After that first week of baby glow, things start to get real, real fast. Sleep deprivation is no joke. But this is our third. So i knew going in that Daddy does not do nights. I know that in the next few weeks while he snores and I rock our new baby I will have thoughts to hurt him. Jussssst kidding, not really 😬.

I am so ready though. My bag has been packed with everything down to matching bows if its a girl and matching hats if its a boy. The baby even packed a little gift for Timmy and Grace. I filled baby bottles with gummie bears and skittles. They are going to think this baby is the coolest. Having all three of my babies meet for the first time is going to be the most special moment ever.

Our final days of just us three relaxing and catching up on our Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.
Whoa! 😂

My sweetest boy

Ugh he melts my heart everyday.

This morning he dressed himself and i said why are you getting so big.

He says so that when I’m an adult I can marry you and we can be together forever.

I always say I dont want him to grow up and he tells me its ok mom because I’m going to stay with you even when I’m big.

Sweet Memories

It was thundering so i made the kids come in. And Grace says mom i have a great idea. We can use a bear to scare away the storm, then we can go back outside.

Tim took the kids to the grocery store but first he went to the bank. Timmy asks why they have to always go to the bank so Tim explains that everything cost money. Timmy says dad youre so crazy because today mom got us cake pops and water from starbucks and she just have them a card not money.

Grace says shes gonna cut my baby out.

Grace telling the baby secrets.

Timmy’s first summer going to VBS. Hes just so precious. Everyday the teachers had a story to tell. One day he led his class in prayer. On the last day he volunteered to say the closing prayer. It was the sweetest thing ever!

Timmy’s first lizard catch!

Me and Grace were laying in my bed and she says mom the three of us are best friends because we are all girls. The baby, me and you mom. Lord help us if this baby is a boy. Lol

Still Pregnant

Tomorrow will be the longest I’ve ever been pregnant. 37 WEEKS!

Everything is going so perfectly health wise its a little shocking. With Timmy and Grace I was so sick and on bedrest. Im kinda putting myself on bedrest at this point. I cant even sit up straight, theres just no room left in my belly. I can hardly drive because I can’t lean forward to check my mirrors. 

At 36 weeks this not so little baby was 7 pounds 4 ounces! Im guessing we are looking at a 10 pound baby if we go to term. 

So far I’ve gone to the hospital twice for contractions. There are moments in the day when I feel like I want to cut this child out myself and other times where i want to freeze time. 

We did a mini improntu maternity session at Aunt Jessicas house and for $0 i think they are perfect! 

These two are so in love woth this baby. Every day Timmy asks how many days until the baby comes out. Grace kisses my belly good morning and good night before she even kisses me. I cant wait for the first time they all meet. ❤️

Look at those lips 😚

Baby moonish

Guess I never clicked publish on this one.

Well along with the rest of my life this blog has been neglected. I. Am. Tired. 
It is such a struggle to have this never ending to do list and zero energy to execute. Napping is a thing now. I literally cannot get through the day without my 2pm nap. Bless my sweet children who will lay next to me and watch a movie. They know the routine now. Most days I wake up and everything is fine and other times there are drawings of elephants in blue marker on my carpet or half chewed carrot sticks everywhere because well mom “we are rabbits now.” 

I’m just trying to survive. So when my husband suggested a short getaway I jumped on board. It is true that I spend every waking minute with my kids but it never can be enough. Except for those naps, but even then if you’re a mom you know you’re still mommin in your sleep. Anyways I was so excited to spend time with my family without that laundry pile staring at me screaming to be folded. 

The only problem with this trip was that it’s real purpose was business. I knew Tim would be working most of the time but the idea was to spend one day together at the pool. It never happened. The man worked sun up to even after the sun went down. The only “quality” time we got with daddy was for meals and even then the phone was ringing off the hook. 

It makes me so sad because of course I miss him. He works from home and he sleeps next to me every night but I feel like I haven’t seen him in weeks. The kids feel it too and it breaks my heart. The few precious moment they got from him they wanted nothing to do with me {🤗} Mommy couldn’t even unbuckle their car seats or hold their hands crossing the street. Sweet Gracie says, “But mommy I want Daddy to hold my hand because I love him.” 

But I guess the opposite of this would be he wasn’t working and we would be broke {more broke} and I’d be miserable about that too so I try not to complain to him.

Me and the kids did have an awesome time just us. I surprised them with a trip to Disney. Timmys all time favorite ride this year is Toy Story Mania. He’s only been on it once but he talks about it constantly. At 8 months pregnant I was scared to conquer Disney solo but we did it and it was a perfect day.

On the last day we had breakfast with pluto & goofy!